I’m a Parent Just Tired of Everything

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Together a decade and a half. Married 14 years. Two amazing kids, beautiful life together (from the outside). I just don’t think I can do this anymore. I’m so tired.

I’ve always been proud to be the perfect wife and mom. But I’m done.

I’m tired of cleaning up after everyone. Being the bitch because I have to raise my voice to get any help.

I’m tired of handling everything except bringing in money.

I’m tired of juggling everyone’s schedule.

I’m tired of being a mom to everyone, my husband included.

I’m tired of trying to keep my shit together when all I want is to scream and yell and break shit.

I’m tired of electronics. Can I run over every gaming console with my car while I giggle like a maniac?

I’m tired of feeling nothing. That’s right. Nothing. Not love, not hate. Just indifference.

I’m tired of trying to care about health issues when you won’t do anything about it.

I’m tired of all this pent-up energy that has no use. Because you don’t touch me anymore. All I get is a side hug and a kiss on the forehead if I’m lucky.

I’m tired of living what feels like a lie. I want to be free. But I don’t know how to do that.